Yesterday when I Skyped with my dear friend from Scotland and then later with my brother and his daughters, my nieces, the distance between us really hit me. I miss them. I miss my family, my friends.
My niece will be 5 years old next week and she asked if we could come to her birthday, well, said that we have to come. She knows that we live far away, but probably doesn't quite understand that we can't just hop on a plane and go to her party. From Australia to Finland, would love that, being able to go to her whenever she has a birthday or just wants me to come and visit. But I can't. I died a little when I said "No, I'm sorry we can't come this year."
My friend in Scotland just moved houses and it wasn't the easiest move and I would have loved to help her, but I couldn't. Not physically anyway, because, again, I'm too far away from Scotland. It's ever so lovely to see her and be able to talk to her via Skype but still, I miss her.
I know that we have made this decision, to move here, the other side of the world, and I am happy here. I have made some friends, gotten to know the neighbors and have got a really exciting job opportunity ahead of me. But who do I share this with?
Some people don't understand how I can live without any family or friends living nearby. Some of them couldn't do it. Some of them could, but won't. I'm here because I want to be here.
10 years ago I married the man of my dreams. He is my best friend, he is who I share this, my life, with. He has been my support, he makes me laugh when I need it and in his own way, he comforts me, when I'm upset.
Yes, I do get homesick, well it's not homesick, because home is here where we are, when I miss my friends, my brother and my nieces and everybody else who are important to me. It makes the missing a little bit easier when you make new friends, who you can laugh with and spend time with even if you are volunteering in their tuck shop.
I do miss my family and friends. But I would miss them wherever I would live. Even if I would ever move back to Finland, I would have family and friends all around the world that I have made when living there.
You can't hide missing people. I need to be where I, my best friend and my boys are happy. The distance might be big or get smaller when or if we move again, but still, I will miss somebody, somewhere, where I have lived and gotten to know them.
